"What is an Anniversary Reaction?" by Beth Erickson, Ph.D.
http://www.strengthforcaring.com/manual/grief-death-and-dying-grief-and-loss/what-is-an-anniversary-reaction/

"Let’s say your loved one died many months ago. You did all the “right” things.  You cried until it seemed like you had no tears left. You talked until you were blue in the face about your beloved to anyone who would listen.  You reminisced, remembering all those touching, irritating, funny, cute quirks your beloved had that made that person unique in the entire world to you. You were irritated that the rest of the world carried on when you were inundated with waves of grief that washed over you again and again, when you least expected it.  But you rode out the swells of grief.

Finally, you could see your pain beginning to subside. You could talk about your loved one without getting a lump in your throat every time. You noticed you could go for hours or days without being preoccupied by your lost love. Okay, maybe not days. 

But still, you had some free attention to get back to the business of living. You were proud of yourself for the way you handled this personal tragedy.  And well you should be!

When Grief Hits All Over Again

Then, wham!  The grief seemed to start all over again. Why? What happened? Does this mean you haven’t made the progress you thought you had?  

No. You are experiencing an anniversary reaction.  An anniversary reaction is an abbreviated version of your grief that comes as if to remind you that resolving a loss takes longer than any of us would like.  The feelings associated with these reactions may have a surprising depth or may be twinges of grief that remind you of your loved one’s absence.  

Anniversary Reactions and Dates

Anniversary reactions predictably occur on the anniversary of a particular date.  For example, the father of a psychotherapy client of mine died in March.  Her birthday was in October.  Although we diligently had worked with her grief, she was stunned when her birthday ushered in a whole new wave of dealing with her dad’s absence.  She was grateful she had saved last year’s birthday phone call from him.  Playing it was almost like hearing from him again.  She expressed relief to know these reactions were normal. 

New rounds of grief may be triggered by normal developmental events.   For instance, the six-year-old daughter of friends of mine was killed in a tragic, freak accident.  When their son went away from home for college fourteen years later, both parents were sorely grieved.  His absence left a big hole in their daily life, of course.  But they were not expecting it to be so hard until I worked with them to connect the dots.  The son’s maturing and leaving home stirred up grief for their daughter’s permanent absence and for her missed opportunity to do the same. 

When to Expect Anniversary Reactions

1. Expect them at landmark times, such as the anniversary of the loved one’s death, funeral, or diagnosis. 

2. These reactions also can accompany more subtle or mundane experiences, such as getting a new car you are unable to show your absent loved one.

3. Anniversary reactions are normal, if surprising, experiences.  Expect them, especially in the first year after the loss. 

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